Secrets

Throughout middle and high school all of these things happened that made me embarrassed, confused or sad. Sometimes all three at the same time. Like when I heard my friends – girls and boys – talk about which guy or girl they “liked” and when I helped a friend decipher which guy she should “date,”…

The Best Part of Fall

It’s probably not a secret that with football season kicking off and the baseball playoffs starting, I’m excited. I’ve loved sports for as long as I can remember, football and baseball particularly. My dad has a voicemail that I left when I was about 5 saying that since some of the Chargers players weren’t playing…

The Monsters Under My Bed

When I was younger, I used to make my parents check in my closet and under my bed when they came into my room to say goodnight. I’d ask them if anything scary would happen during the night and when they responded with “Nope!” it instantly brought a sense of relief and comfort. It didn’t…

Acoustic

In fifth grade, I took guitar as my elective. I had never played before, but my grandparents had a guitar sitting in their closet and when I told them about the class, they offered to let me use it. It was way too big for my fifth grade self and I couldn’t get my arms…

Paint

We painted my room in the summer of 2014. We took everything off the walls, moved the furniture and the walls changed from a bare and plain white to a blue that is much like the color of the sky. As we painted, my mom made me go through everything – books, clothes, what was…

In This Together

It’s not a secret to anyone who knows me that my favorite song in the “High School Musical” movies is “We’re All In This Together.” Because we are. I think that people tend to forget about the interconnectedness of us all, how deeply reliant we are on one another. After all, it’s easy to get…

The Picture Above The Mantle

A picture of a family in blue jeans and white shirts runs through my mind. You know, the one that hangs above so many mantles giving off the image of the so called “perfect family.” The entire family is smiling and the dog – usually a golden retriever or lab – sits in the front…

Memories

I sometimes wish that I could go back and watch the past few years of my life, “The Office” style. Not because I have regrets, moreso that I wish I could see how my personality and overall being has shifted. And I know it has. I can feel it. I’ve put a few more pieces…

Love

As a heterosexual, cisgender female, I’m aware that I come from a place of privilege. I’ll never have to come out or walk down the street while trying to ignore questioning glances (or worse). But I also know that not everyone comes from this place. I was watching videos of people – teenagers particularly –…

How I See

Our eyes say a lot about us if we pay attention – about the place we’re in and about our mood. I vividly remember looking in the mirror about 2 years ago and noticing the darkness, reflective of what was going on. My truth. Today, when I look in the mirror I can see how…

18 Things I’ve Learned At 18

As I celebrate 19 years today, here’s 18 things I’ve learned over the past 18 years. There’s a difference between finding time and making time. The people you surround yourself with matter so much. There’s a reason people say that you’re the sum of the 5 people you’re around the most. As soon as you…

Sunsets and Duets

I didn’t used to like sunsets. I watched them when my parents made my brother and I but I never made an effort to go see one myself. Growing up in San Diego, they were sort of just there; something we could see every night. But over the past year, watching the sunset has become…